कमाल बेमिसाल अल-अनॉन के 75 साल कितना अद्भुत एहसास, मेरे आने से पहले, मेरे जाने के बाद । नहीं कोई राजा, नहीं कोई रानी । यह हैं लुईस और ऍन के साथ हम सब की कहानी ।। एक आम सा पति, एक आम सी पत्नी, फिसले अर्श से फ़र्श तक, थी दलदल की खाई, जब हर दिन हुई शराब से लड़ाई । शराब ,शराब है बड़ी ख़राब, यही सुना था सब की ज़ुबानी । शराबीपन से पीड़ित लुईस ने ख़ुद…
Let It Begin With Me When I came to Al-Anon—as a friend of mine says, many moons ago—I remember looking at the sayings on the walls. I didn’t understand at first that they were called slogans or how to apply them to my daily life. Some were easier to try than others. At that time, I felt overwhelmed and believed I was already doing everything for everyone. Every time I looked at “Let It Begin with Me,” I saw red…
Tending to My Garden of Grief This morning, as I grappled once again with the loss of my daughter through estrangement by her choice over the last three years, my Higher Power gave me a perfect metaphor in a quote from the July 5 reading in Courage to Change (B-17). The quote at the bottom of the page reads, “Love your neighbor, yet pull not down your hedge.” This program is teaching me to turn my attention and reliance…
Why I stayed There are many reasons, but I think the initial one was the connection I made with people who opened their hearts by sharing their trials and struggles, past and present. When I first came to Al-Anon, I didn’t know what to expect, but I quickly found something I hadn’t experienced before. Second, I was finally listened to without being shut down. And third, I felt safe. The hurt and pain I felt were not unique to me.…
Translating Conference Approved Literature – Part 1 Before joining the World Service Office (WSO) as a Paralegal, I had not considered how Conference Approved Literature (CAL) is translated into languages other than Spanish and French. Today, I appreciate the independent review process, which ensures that CAL translations are both faithful to the original English text and effective in conveying the program’s spiritual message. When the Board of Trustees of Al-Anon grants permission to an international structure (an organized group responsible…
Staying on My Side of the Court I hadn’t played tennis for many years but took it up again after my marriage to an alcoholic ended. Although I really enjoyed playing, I would often finish a game feeling angry and resentful toward my opponent. During our games, I concentrated so much on what was happening on her side of the court that I couldn’t even call a ball in or out on my own side. If my opponent miscalled a…
Caring for the Parent Who Didn’t Care for Me I didn’t realize I was raised in alcoholism. Mine felt like a typical Gen X childhood—latchkey kid, caring for younger siblings, parents who worked hard and partied harder. Only later did I understand the instability and trauma that shaped me. Looking back, I can see that alcoholism ran deep in my mom’s family. Chaos was normalized. Safety wasn’t. Today, my mom is 74 and in declining health. My siblings and I…
I Put Myself First When I first came to Al‑Anon, I never realized how deeply I was affected by growing up in an alcoholic family. However, attending Al‑Anon meetings slowly but surely taught me how to take care of myself. For a long time, I never put myself first, but in Al‑Anon, I learned that I have choices. I discovered that I can say no, let go of the rope rather than play tug-of-war, and not attend every argument I…
From Worry to Wonder I have been a worrier since childhood, and I had reason to be. My mother developed rheumatoid arthritis at 35 and spent years in a wheelchair. My father drank too much beer and had mood swings that ranged from depression to rage. When I was 12, I somehow decided that if I ever stopped worrying, something terrible would happen. I didn’t know any better. I became the family’s resident worrier. With my mom’s condition, a move…
If I Am Aware, I Am Responsible Years ago, I decided to branch out and find an additional meeting to attend in the town where I lived. There were limited choices in this relatively small community, including a local meeting I attended occasionally. What I experienced was a meeting that had one member who served as both the sole keyholder and the contact with the facility where the meeting was held. Each week, “Jim” unlocked the building, set up the…